i swear, my stupid body was definately NOT built to do drugs. having crohn's sucks, let me tell u. not only do u hafta restrict everything u eat,
1. u cant drink alcohol (i cant even drink milk w/o my entire digestive tract going outta wack!)
2. nicotine.. is just a no no. i've learned my lesson
3. if u dont constantly keep something in ur stomach, you'll swell up like a balloon b/c the stomach acid is just killing ur insides

i guess i could have it worse.. like.. i totally have a new respect for ppl who have liver problems (ppl who naturally have them, not b/c they abused drugs/alcohol). i had to detox off of chemo this past year & i swear i've never been sicker in my life. imagine having to detox everyday! gosh, i salute you guys

anyway since i just cold turkeyed smoking (even though i havent been smoking long @ ALL) i feel like i'm detoxing haha but like.. 1/10 of how it feels. i just cant quit throwing up & i just feel like absolute shit.
bright side: ive dropped like 5 lbs this week w/o even trying

anyway i hope u have been feelin better luntaa! you're doing amazinggg & i cant wait to see a picture of you!!

 

so i havent been on here for a bit. my cousin from scotland just got here & i've been entertaining her & ive started smoking a bit.. i know not good but its shed a few pounds for me.
other than that.. i've been up to jack shit haha ~ havent really eaten that much lately but havent been able to hit the gym, taking care of my mom & visiting w/ my cousin

thanks for the support luntaa even though i havent been here. i hope u dont think i havent been thinking about you b/c i have! i hope you're doing great & being successful & enjoying ur summer!


 

questions for today:
1. would u start smoking [anything] if u KNEW it would make u lose weight?
2. what food [that you know of] has the lowest calories?

recent pics of me.. not too good but i'm losin


 
 

i thought i'd post some pics of me from this week.. i dunno i guess a bit of progress? makes me wanna work harder :(




12 has always been my lucky number, so i'm gonna hope that sticks & start ABC today.
i have EXACTLY 8 weeks until i go back to school & i wanna look GREAT
i was doing great @ my detox, but i ate mashed potatoes last night so i have to start over
anyway i'm just gonna post abc in here again so i always know i have a list..
WEEK 1: 500, 500, 300, 400, 100, 200, 300
WEEK 2: 400, 500, fast, 150, 200, 400, 350
WEEK 3: 250, 200, fast, 200, 100, fast, 300
WEEK 4: 250, 200, 150, 100, 150, 100, 200
WEEK 5: 200, 300, 800, fast, 250, 350, 450
WEEK 6: fast, 500, 450, 400, 350, 300, 250
WEEK 7: 200, 200, 250, 200, 300, 200, 150
WEEK 8: fast



TIPS FOR TODAY: Fast Food Chicken Sandwiches

Good
1. Wendy's girlled chicken sandwich - 310 cals - 8g of fat
2. Subway's 6" roasted chicken breast sandwich - 311 cals - 6g of fat
3. McDonald's chicken mcgrill - 340 cals - 7g of fat

Better
1. Arby's light roast chicken deluxe - 260 cals - 5g of fat
2. Chick-fil-A's chargrilled chicken sandwich - 280 cals - 3g of fat